[Wednesday October 11th @ 10:44PM] i don't want to move on. i don't want u to push me out of your life. i want u and how it used to be. i miserable without you and need you in my life. 1 lights go out and I can't be saved.

nothing new [Sunday September 24th @ 10:31PM] i'm going to be the person i used to be. not worry. live for one person and no one else. i have wasted my time for so long... but i am goin to stop being emo. and start living my life. "Open wide my door. My Lord!"- mewithoutyou 1 lights go out and I can't be saved.

[Monday September 4th @ 10:34PM] What have I found In this life of mine, Is that you will never find true happiness. Why should I have to feel this way... No one should have to feel this way. 1 lights go out and I can't be saved.

Kill ME Plz! [Monday July 31st @ 4:57PM] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | A Life Once Lost ] so yea this is the first time in a while i've updated and just to say i'm tired of everything. apparently i'm a drama queen. and that gives me a good laugh, but i just wish things were back to normal when i wasn't so depressed all the time over relationships. I just wish i could find someone faithful. thats all i want, but i don't know where to find it. someone thats not confused about what they want and will give me their all. i'm at the point of giving up and i guess that makes me selfish. forgive me of my sins. i NEED YOU more than ever Jesus... 1 lights go out and I can't be saved.

stressed [Wednesday June 28th @ 6:17PM] i haven't made a post in a while so i figured i would in hope that there is someone who would care to read about my life. i'm sooo stressed... there's so many things i wanna do with my life and i can't make up my mind. most of the time i get so depressed that i just want to end everything and be with Jesus, but i tend to find myself being selfish and know that he has plans for my life so i continue on for the sake of his will being done in my life no matter how miserable i am. i miss someone so much sometime that all i wanna do is be around them all the time as well as talk to them all the time on the phone if were not together, and i get stressed out because i don't think the feelings are mutual... but in the end i always realize that these feelings are mutual and i'm just being selfish. forgive my retardedness. someone please fucking shoot me! 2 lights go out and I can't be saved.

i donno [Wednesday May 17th @ 12:03AM] [ mood | confused ] [ music | The Faceless ] my life is pretty confusing right now. between trying to decided if i wanna play with a band or not and people in general and relationships, life gets pretty hectic. and i hate hectic! but i just want one person to know that I LOVE THEM! and i wish we talked more.... A.M.S. 2 lights go out and I can't be saved.

finally updating! [Wednesday May 10th @ 9:20PM] so, i decided to update my live journal for the second time i've had it and really all i can say is i love mac! she's my everything and i'll do anything to make her happy! short and sweet! 4 lights go out and I can't be saved.

confused [Wednesday March 8th @ 7:23PM] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | ion dissonance ] my life is really good right now but..... very confusing... i have decided to go back to college in august or jan. there is just a lotta things happening that could change my life drastic ly.. and i am so happy because my girlfriend is amazing, but confusing most of the time:) but needless to say she has my heart. and i just want her to be happy no matter what, i just hope she can have patience with me, and if she can't then my life will be ruined because the truth is i'm building my future around her... i get to see her again this weekend and am very excited! and of course i'm gonna make this another amazing weekend. i'm looking for a new vehicle because i wrecked mine and i'm ready to get a new one anyway i'm probably goin to college in tuscaloosa,AL so i can be closer to my baby and get away from my normal everyday life. i just hope this will be worth moving far away from home. 1 lights go out and I can't be saved.

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